I'm soooooooo looking forward to buying a new set of clothes, whenever that'll happen (:

Maybe something like this..

IRELAND, THE LAND OF MY DREAMS

I bought my trainging pass for a month at Fristis & Svettis today and I did my first Yoga class in ages. I wasn't as bendable as the ladie you see on the picture, but I'll get there :) It feels good to have gotten started anyway.

I'm going to celebrate it together with my family (and my biggest little sister Magda who just came home from a week in Portugaaal! She's too brown and now I'm even whiter) and some delicious home-made pizza and FAT waffles with whip cream and jaam. BEAT THAT! Yuummy.. :D

The pizza is waiting!! SO LONG suckers!

(Not sure if THAT'S what's goin to happen, but it'll be nice allright :) )

There are two things that I'm going to do as soon as I arrive in Los Angeles:

1. Stand at the gates of Neverland
2. Visit the Ellen DeGeneres Show

While I was out today handing out CV's I passed by my old after-school where I spend most of my days when I was younger. And right across the street is a park where I've been playing ever since I was a baby. Those are the places where I was the happiest. Now the after-school is gone, long time ago, and the park is re-built, not at all as nice as it used to be. It's such a shame. I really loved my days at my after-school. I used to practice Michael Jackson's dance steps. I remember when my mom bought me the HIStory album right when it came out and Blood On the Dancefloor. I remember painting MJ drawings and I used to sell them for 5 kronor in the park. I used to dress up like Michael, I remember mom bought me a pair of black leather pants and a white shirt. We curled my hair and put it in a low pony tail, just like Michael's, and I performed a couple of times, with background dancers and all. We did Black or White, Bad, Billie Jean, Smooth Criminal. You name it, I did it. Those were the days, the happy days. I wish I could get my hands on a video from one of those performances. Or at least a photo. There is nothing. Such a shame.. That's when Michael started to really mean something w/ me and he's been stuck w/ me ever since.. That kind of love never dies.

Now, Sinai's daughter is only a couple of years old and she's crazy about Michael. Always Michael, Michael, Michael. And I feel her in a way. And I get happy when I hear about how crazy she is about him bc that's how I felt when I was younger as well (and still does). I hope she never forgets about that love bc it is true happiness to feel that way about something or someone, especially as a child. And I'm sure she will look back when she gets older and feel re-connect to that happiness, just like I am. It's a powerful feeling. Whenever I think of Michael, weather it is with happiness or sadness, I feel this powerful and enormous feelings taking over mer. It's a great feeling to have, I'm telling you..

Michael's importance to me is huge. He is my inspiration, motivation. Love and kindness. He's a great passion in my life. He is the happy days of childhood, to me.

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Summers in Sweden are the best time of the year. Even though you don't have any cash, AT ALL, you can still be out all day w/ friends. I'm extra happy bc Charlotte is staying for the whole summer. She lives in London otherwise w/ her bf. But since I will be gone for 2 yrs it's simply perfect, we'll be able to hang out a lot before I goooo. She's said that she'll try to come visit me, I really hope so. ALL visits are more than welcome! Another great thing is that I will be hanging out a lot more w/ my bgf Cristina, I think she will be spending a great deal of the summer here in Stockholm if I'm not mistaking. We haven't talked in a while, I guess I should call her, but my phone is dead :( Right now she's living in Uppsala with HER bf while they are studying. I use to tell them, Cris and Charlotte, that when we're older we'll be spending Christmas together and they will be there w/ their husbands and kids and I'll be right in the middle, ALL ALONE. Hahaha. I haven't had a bf in ages now, I think like 3 yrs to be more exact. But I guess it's mostly my own fault :) But it doesn't really bother me either. You know what they say: when the time is right..

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CHARLOTTE
 


 
CRISTINA



   

I'm excited. Tonight is the night. It's the Jacksons night. :) 22:40 at channel 4 ♥

I was on my date yesterday by the way. It was nice. I met him outside Hard Rock where he works, but at first he wasn't there, he was inside and he told me to come in. So I figured that's where he wanted to take me to eat so I said no and told him to come out. He came and we went to a nice pizza place nearby. We sat talking for a while, he told me about his family and such and I found out that he actually understands Swedish!! And I've been talking English with him all this time hahaha. Well, no more. He's gonna have to learn how to speak good Swedish. He already is pretty good. Anyways, enough about him. I don't think there'll be a second date anyway. Soorry, haha!


I LOVE books! Sometimes I think they're the best thing in the world, BOOKS! Isn't it great that there are libraries where you can lend books for FREE?? You can read as much as you want, bring home loads of music for weeks at a time and rent movie after movie, all without a cost. I think it's fantastic and I hope it never goes away. I brought home a new book yesterday: Motown: Music, Money, Sex and Power. So far so good! I love to know about the Motown days and all the amazing artists from that time. I've already read about Michael Jackson and Diana Ross. I would like read about Smokey and the Miracles and the Supremes as well.

Alright, it's time for some Oprah Winfrey Show. Today it's about a mother of three who was an alcoholic for years. I feel so sorry for her children, I can partly see myself in them and feel their pain. So sad..

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I'm sitting at home, waiting, and longing, for THE JACKSONS to come on, and what happens?! BORAT starts, 40 min before my show is about to begin, so I realize something's been changed. I look at the programme listings and there's NO Jacksons anywhere?! It's been moved to next Thursday, just so that they can show fucking Borat?! Are you kidding me!?! HUGE disappointment. First they changed the time from 21:00 to 22:40, and then they just move it around as they like.. Bad, bad service. And now there is nothing to watch, the best there is is Bad Boys, but I'm not in the mood for that kind of thing.

Buuu for channel 4! Major disappointment.

I must say that I am once again very impressed with Gaga’s and Åkerlund’s beautiful collaboration. This time it's their latest work TELEPHONE, featuring Miss Knowles. The production is brilliantly executed and I am very inspired by the way the video is done; the colors, the costumes, the way it’s edited. It’s all perfect. ENJOY you guys:

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I just came home from a couple of hours of school and a meeting with my new boss, well that's what I thought. We talked for a while and then set a couple of days for introduction. I was excited as hell when I walked out of her office and then went for a small shopping spree to buy loads of candy to fill 6 Easter eggs. About an hour after my meeting with "my boss" she called me and said she had talked to one of my references who apparently had a lot of bad things to say about me. It was a real downer, I was happy to have been given a job so that I don't have to worry about the summer and now this?! Apparently this "reference" has been talking shit about me to other people where I've been applying for a job. As you probably can understand, I didn't get the job. So all I can say is: UP YOURS! I know what I'm good for and it ain’t that bunch of shit coming out of that bitch's mouth that's for sure.

But, I happen to believe that everything happens for a reason so hopefully something even better will come out of it. Back to searching for a job then! EXCITING!

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By the way, I found a note in my letterbox when I came home and it was from my next door neighbor, asking me out on a date hah! (: He asked me if he could take me to the movies tonight to see Aniston’s new film BOUNTY HUNTER. I think the note was meant for yesterday though, but he didn’t write a date on it so I’m not sure. I wasn’t home yesterday; I was sleeping at my mom’s house after babysitting their neighbors’ daughter Stella sooo, I don’t know. Maybe it was yesterday or maybe it’s tonight, we’ll see. I wrote back, thinking it’s tonight, that I have to be home at 22:40 because that’s when THE JACKSONS start, and I just HAVE TO see it. I suggested we could see it tomorrow or on Sunday. We’ll see what he says, the note will probably dump back in my letterbox later. Haha, guess what? Just when I wrote: “the note will probably dump back in my letterbox later”, the note dumped down in my letterbox, I’m gonna get it right away, hold on…

Ok, so it’s set for Sunday! Cewl, I actually wanted to see that movie, I’m a big fan of Jen so it’s greeeeat! Gosh, I feel much better already. Just when I found out that I didn’t get the job I was ready to burst into tears, but now I feel pretty good. I’ll find a better job, I’m sure.

Mmmm, I’m hungry. Time for some cold smoked salmon and some TV! Adiós amigos y amigas ♥, and a special hello to my only two followers, Sinai and Elina (:

After checkin in on my mom yesterday (who's still got the flu) she sent me a text message. She said she's going to miss me terribly when I'm gone and that she's worried about me, getting in trouble. Then I realized that it hasn't really hit me yet, the fact that I am going to the the States for at least 2 years, ALL ALONE. But I'm a strong lady, I'm sure it'll be great. A lot of tears will be shed, but it will be worth it. GOD I'll miss my family ♥ ! I see them at least 4 times a week and now I might not see them for two years! We'll see what happens. I might be able to go back for a short trip after a year or so. Can't write anymore now, got to watch Svenska Hollywoodfruar ("Swedish Hollywoodwives")! It's hilarious, I love Maria, she's such a blonde! But she's got a big RED heart!

SO LONG (:

(Maria's the one on the right)

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